the historia

Not long ago I hosted a Cinco de Mayo gathering because I truly believe in the holiday and everything it stands for.

Need I not mention what it stands for; I trust we are all on the same page...

The lamentable guacamole contest and the cheap stick-on mustaches went excellently, and I mean excellently, with the flowing margaritas and random mix of people that came and went throughout the evening, all of whose mouths were so thirsty for the bottomless waterfalls of sweet, sweet tequila...

Amongst such crowd were two neighbors, who rather unexpectedly came down from directly above us (like angels!!!!) somewhere around 1 and 3 a.m., as some sources vaguely have it.

A little background on these aforementioned characters before we actually met them, which was that very night:

Renée: no idea of their existence

Joan: saw one of them once, maybe twice, but couldn't remember a single thing about her, except that he felt attracted to her presence

Carlos: saw one of them in the elevator one time, and remembers feeling this strange "in love" sensation (read: boner)

Anyway, back to that night. I mentioned "we met them" but really I mean just I met them. I happened to have the apartment to myself that weekend (PARTY!) and thus Carlos and Joan were unfortunately not present for that special night the three female spirits united, when they crashed the party and I fell in love.

I was delighted by their spontaneity, but mainly our neighbor-status, probably because I was so drunk.

No, no. I take that back. I have always been particularly in to loving thy neighbor. Especially cool, young female neighbors in a building of 80% old people and an apartment 66% boy. I am a minority, and I seek out my kind.

So these two cute girls show up and really they were just charming. I vaguely remember thinking, with 100% confidence in my state of drunken happiness: ¡¡ these girls are going to be my new!best!friends!!! there is no other way the world can beeee!!!!

Which is what I told Carlos and Joan when I related the exciting news to them, knowing how excited they would be. I wanted them to rest assured that I would definitely be inviting the girls over for dinner.

Anyway, I unfortunately shouldn't go any further because I am respectable enough on the internet. And in all reality there is nothing too juicy--just rather comical details. But you can take what you will when I say, It appears there might be a historia building up, exciting news considering that I have double-whammy girl-crush as well as a weak spot for minor gossip.

Which brings me to this: I do often battle with longing for female presence at home (probably the root of the girl-crush) but I have finally come to accept the fact that more often than not, boys are just like girls. So I can live without the estrogen and really, live quite well... But this is not to say that I won't join the crowd in wooing them. Stay tuned for updates.

saturday evening

Vanilla skies in Madrid. It's 9:30 p.m. in the picture if you can believe it. This is the kind of light we deal with in Spain.

new blog name

I'm thinking of renaming the blog Tia no tengo la pasta and Tarsiers: everyday life of tarsiers and a tarsier fanatic in Spain.

rant on ac

I don't care that wikipedia uses the words "thermal comfort" in their definition of air conditioning, nor do I care about how many lives air conditioning has saved in stifling hell holes like Lubbock, Texas. I think it is the worst invention of all time.

Yes, that's right. Of all the filthy, despicable things that mankind has come up with.... think hair plugs, nuclear weapons, wheatgrass-flavored ice cream... air conditioning is far by the worst.

I came to Spain thinking I would escape its evil wrath... I longed for sweltering summers lying around in my swim suit, or smelly bus rides because there is a large part of me that really likes natural body odor and I have no shame in admitting it...

I wanted so bad to forget my days of hot and fussy roommate wars over the air dial... for the love of GOD it is actually unhealthy to live in a freezer when it's 90 degrees out, and the vent is giving me the black lung.

And for the most part, coming to old-school Europe has done the trick. I sweat my ass off last August in Cadiz for example and loved every minute of it.

But as it turns out, the devil lurks in all corners of the world. Today's high was 29 degrees celsius in Madrid (almost a perfect temperature if you ask me), and though we thankfully could do nothing about it at our sans-ac home, the bus I take each Monday night was definitely making up for the lack thereof.

I really look forward to my bus rides--a time that I usually spend not on the physical bus but rather on Mars. And despite the fact that the metro takes half the time, I take the bus home because I like to look out the vast windows, and then I sometimes like to open the tiny ones up top to catch whatever breeze might slightly caress my face...

But tonight I stepped on, and was immediately forced to CURSE THE GODS OF TECHNOLOGY WHY MUST THEY TORTURE ME SO WITH THEIR BLIGHTED, REFRIGERATED, FAKE AIR? It was so cold, I would have preferred the bus's hot exhaust fumes blasting in my face, because there is nothing worse than frozen, purple toes that look like they were just fished out of some freezing lake of upstate New York, which is currently the state they are in, yes, even 30 minutes after escaping the polar state that line 23 was sporting this evening.

Glad I got that off my chest, I think it has helped my toes thaw quicker. Thanks for listening, and turn off your air if you've got it on. It's only May and you're wasting energy.

15-M

I am trying to get excited about the big things going on in my current city...

And by current city, I mean my 'hood. The day and night protests that started six days ago in Sol, the center of Madrid, are no less than ten minutes walking distance from my front door... They say they want a revolution....

If you know me well, you know I am not into politics. I used to think it was a sign of immaturity but I think it's now safe to say that some things just aren't meant to be. Forget goverment teachers' fruitless attempts to inspire me, or my sister's lousy lectures that always ended in frustration...I don't have faith: politics and I will just never understand one another.

But even though I have come upon this conclusion (that I am a slightly cynical young adult in this sense), my apathy currently converts itself inwardly to confusion and, outwardly, to embarrassment. Why don't I care?

I suppose it has less to do with my political apathy, and more with my foreign status. In a country that is not my own, I find it incredibly difficult to relate to my Spanish peers, unemployed or not. I understand that the system is shit, the politicians don't actually stand for the people...but here's the cynic in me, saying "Come on, what's new?" This isn't just a problem in Spain: I don't know if I believe that there are alternatives to the corrupt capitalism that we ourselves have created. And then I can't help but wonder why this is all going down just days before the elections? Pardon me if I am mistaken, but it seems a little late to provoke real change.

This is sort of painful for two reasons. In the first place, I have lived here nearly two years, Madrid is home, and I want to feel solidarity with its citizens. Then I think about some of these peers that I speak of, some that are particularly close to me.... and their enthusiasm has not inspired any such feelings in myself. In fact, it has had the contrary effect: I have felt irritated, jealous and bitter. Irritated because I'm tired of hearing about it, even my American friends are on the bandwagon. Jealous because I want to be riled up too, damnit. And bitter because I just can't seem to get there...

And of course to continue with the slightly psychotic behavior, I have to be stubborn. I have refused to go see Sol all week.

But curiosity generally gets the best of me, so I roamed over there last night and then again this afternoon. How could I not, when it is just down the street? My skepticism should at least be grounded in something..

So I stumbled around the masses, snapped some photos of the endless eye-candy, and ate an ice cream while pondering the "writing on the wall"... still, no spark.

But, little by little, I have tried to at least understand, and in doing this, I believe I can support the cause. What I have gathered is that this is no everyday protest... this thing is a total grassroots movement, and the anger-fueled youth behind it, also known as the Democracia Real Ya, have done an impressive job in executing it. Each day it has gained more and more momentum. What they have mounted in Sol is like a small, autonomous city. Run by the people, for the people, and they are not going anywhere. So here's the truth: I suppose this is exciting, and something is perhaps changing.

The only problem is this: tomorrow is judgement day. Will all efforts be futile?!

P.S. Find more info, but mainly better pictures, here

three hours later...

The mint wilts. IT'S A CURSE.

friday

As it turns out, some things are not like mother like daughter.

Despite mom's expert tips, I can't seem to make things grow...the failure to germinate seeds this spring has been close to crushing. It's as if I were infertile...

But instead of wallowing in my lack of a green thumb, I chose to adopt.

Say hello to my new babies! Since plants are relatively easy to take care of, I decided to adopt four: a set of twins (cherry tomatoes) and then a brother and sister, mint and spearmint.